I am having what I call a "hazy day" my meds are screwing around with my vision (which happens occasionally when I don't eat enough in the morning). Every once in a while this is a sort of fun place to be. I feel sort of like I'm about to float away. Which would be neat, except that one; I'm afraid of heights and two; I'd hit the ceiling here in my apartment. This is sort of the downside to being medicated, I have these days at least once a week. I know that eating something more will make me feel better (and maybe a nap) but it just seems like a lot of trouble to make something. Y'know, I hate being bipolar. Really, I just want to be normal for three seconds. I want to stop having to remember twice a day to shove those nasty pills down my throat so I can be normal. I don't want to be offended anymore when people talk about how others with my disease are so "crazy" and "insane", these comments tend to make me wonder if I'm insane, and if I am, would I know it? Most of all I want to stop wondering every time I meet someone if they will end up hating me because they're scared of my illness (this has happened, I know, its surprising).

One of the cats is on my desk, she's looking at me expectantly. So I pet her, she's purring now. They're so sweet, they seem to know when I'm sad. Either that or she wants me to open a can of tuna.