The zoo was nice... The day was perfect for the zoo. I felt like a little kid holding E's hand and looking at animals, talking about the ones that would be fun to have as pets. We got back to my place around five, and collapsed, laying in bed laughing like kids about the silliest things, I swear, that boy can be so much fun at times. Round about six I called D, there had been tentative plans for dinner either tonight or Wednesday night. Not wanting to shirk our relationship just because E is here, I called. No answer. Left message. No call for another hour. At seven, I was starving. So E took me to his aunt's (where he's house sitting) and I made a fabulous dinner... Just as I was about to put it in the oven my cell rang. It was D. Had a slight cell malfunction and could not answer, listened to the message though;

D: "Where are you? I've called you at home and you aren't there. Call me back. We had plans."

Plans? I thought "maybe sometime in the next few days, I'll call you" sounded pretty tentative. So I called back:

Me: "Hey."

D: "Hey, where are you?" (Tone of voice:Warm, sweet.)

Me: "Umm... E's Aunt's place, I'm making dinner."

D: "What? WE had plans." (TOV: Huffy)

Me: " I called you, you didn't answer, I thought you'd rather do Wednesday."

D: "I was looking forward to seeing you tonight, and now..." (TOV: Increasingly Huffy)

Me:"I'm sorry, will tomorrow work, you were the one who suggested we meet tomorrow."

D: "I don't know Etoile, it seems like you don't have your priorities straight."
(TOV: Straight Up Mad)

Me: "D(using his full name, not just the cute abbreviation I usually use.)! Do NOT speak to me that way!"

D: "Why Etoile?"
(TOV: Very Angry)

Me: *small sob* "Because it hurts my feelings."

D: "Well you have hurt mine. You OBVIOUSLY don't care"
(TOV: Angrier Than Angry)

Me: "WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE ME TO DO? LEAVE? WOULD THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY? I CAN'T PLEASE EVERYONE ALL AT FUCKING ONCE. IF YOU'LL RECALL, WHEN YOUR PRECIOUS "J" WAS IN TOWN I COULDN'T EVEN CALL YOU! THE FACT THAT I'M EVEN ON THE PHONE RIGHT NOW IS MORE COURTESY THAN YOU GAVE ME!"

D: "Etoile, this is ridiculous, you should have called me again. Til I answered so we could talk about it... That's all I'm saying."

(Um WHAT? Call him til he answered? What is he? My frickin' keeper?)

E: "What the hell is going on? Why the FUCK are you crying? What a fucking bastard..." (Trails off after I wave him away, muttering obscenities in the background)

Me: "Do you want to do something tomorrow or not?"

D: "I don't really know if I do now."
(TOV: Pouty.)

Me: "Fine. You know what: Call me when you DO know ok? I won't hold my breath." (Slam shut goes the flip phone. Wipes angry tears.)

E: "Baby? You ok? What does he think he OWNS you?"

Me: "Who fucking cares what he fucking thinks. Pour me another beer sweetie, and lets go smoke a cig."

He smile that great smile at me, pouring me a cold one;

E: "That's the spirit Etoile! That's my girl! FUCK'EM!"

Me: "Yeah, you don't like it to much when that's my attitude towards you!"

E: "Nah, but I like it that I know you aren't discriminating against me personally! Nice to see that 'his godliness' gets it once in a while too."

We put our arms around one another and stepped out to "smoke a butt" as he puts it. I swear these men are about to drive me insane. Does neither of them have a grain of sense? I feel like telling them both to FUCKING PISS OFF! Of course I won't... Its just PMS week and they are both idiots. Smile, smile Etoile... The world's a funny place!