I had the strangest afternoon. I stopped to get something to eat at this little fast-food Mexican joint (called Qdoba, you should try it sometime if you get the chance, veggie nachos... mmm.) when I ran into E. We exchanged hellos then decided as we were both alone we might as well eat together. We sat and joked and made small talk for a half-hour or so. Traffic had picked up considerably before our meal was through and neither of us seemed in a hurry to get back into it. He asked if I might want to grab a cup of coffee at this cute place down the street. Seeing as traffic on the road to my house looked fairly gridlocked I agreed. I ordered a chai and with resolve paid for it myself, even though I saw him reach for his wallet. We sat on a couch together and idly chatted some more. Soon my tea was growing cold, and I could see traffic had picked up. I was beginning to think about leaving. But he scooted a little closer to me on the couch. I became increasingly unsettled. He put his arm casually on the back of the couch and leaned in a little closer to me. I leaned back from him. His fingers lightly brushed a strand of hair out of my eyes, then grazed my knee. "You look amazing." His voice was soft and seductive. I laughed nervously, not meeting his stare. All of a sudden music in the shop changed from soft Indian music to Top 40, the song "The Reason" came on... I had a flashback... To the night D told me he loved me, when we were at the bar. That song was playing when he asked me if we could leave. I practically jumped out of my seat. "I have to use the ladies room... be right back." I scurried into said washroom and stared at myself in the mirror thinking; "This is wrong, I shouldn't be here." I walked out of the bathroom smiling; "I should get going" I chirped briskly. He took a deep breath, then nodded. The walk back to where we'd parked was uncomfortable. He hugged me, I just stood there lamely not even being able to raise my arms to hug him back. When I got into my own car I only felt relief. When I'd been home an hour and D called to chat about the cost of snow tires I felt warmth creep back into my heart. I made the right choice. I'm with the person I really love. I'm with the person I really love. I can look back on all the times in the past two years that I've known D when I'd say goodbye to E, and know that I was going to see D soon; I see that same relief I felt after leaving him today. I've always known that D was who I was meant to be with. I'm couldn't be happier, the waiting is finally over.