So I take it from the comments box that it would be appreciated if I went into this whole D thing with my eyes wide open.
They are. Very wide.
Here's the thing, LMS had it right. I've spent the past two years aching over this guy. All along I knew he loved me, that there was something holding him back, but that he loved me too. I know what those things are now, and I'm not willing to give up on something that could be really wonderful just because mistakes were made. It is a huge risk for me to be with D. But I can't imagine what it would be like to walk away from this now. The time we've spent together already has been so amazing. Finally getting to say all the things we've been thinking of for so long feels like a relief. We've laughed for so long last night thinking about all the times we wanted to say we loved each other, but didn't. I told him about my dreams and he told me about some of his. We held hands watching TV, had sex on the kitchen counter, he made me dinner, and did all the dishes.
This is the man that I want to be with. He wants to be with me too.
While I am totally prepared to get completely ripped apart here, I just don't see that happening. I've been close enough to D for long enough to know that he doesn't take commitment, to anything, lightly. Once he's made a decision it is a highly thought out decision.
I can't wait to see what happens next.
One more thing... Voting rocks.
They are. Very wide.
Here's the thing, LMS had it right. I've spent the past two years aching over this guy. All along I knew he loved me, that there was something holding him back, but that he loved me too. I know what those things are now, and I'm not willing to give up on something that could be really wonderful just because mistakes were made. It is a huge risk for me to be with D. But I can't imagine what it would be like to walk away from this now. The time we've spent together already has been so amazing. Finally getting to say all the things we've been thinking of for so long feels like a relief. We've laughed for so long last night thinking about all the times we wanted to say we loved each other, but didn't. I told him about my dreams and he told me about some of his. We held hands watching TV, had sex on the kitchen counter, he made me dinner, and did all the dishes.
This is the man that I want to be with. He wants to be with me too.
While I am totally prepared to get completely ripped apart here, I just don't see that happening. I've been close enough to D for long enough to know that he doesn't take commitment, to anything, lightly. Once he's made a decision it is a highly thought out decision.
I can't wait to see what happens next.
One more thing... Voting rocks.
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Yes, I voted Kerry. Not that it seems to be doing him, or us any good... I feel ill.
Yes I hope it goes well too Etoile. I must admit that Im being cynical perhaps slightly swayed by previous posts in which one minute its all steamy sex and sinking into D's arms and the next he's telling you that youre too crazy for him to deal with and he's running a mile.
I hope he's thought his decision through. I hope he's ready to take you when youre having good days AND really really terrible ones.
And if not - then I wish for his dick to drop off.
So there.
It sounds. Amazing.
Go for it. With everything.
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