When you talk that way to me it hurts. When you're aggressive towards me it hurts, even when you say "I'm just joking around". When you passive aggresively make me the bad guy all the time it makes me question myself. When I can't understand what I've done to make things go so wrong it kills me.

When you watch me go through so much, but can barely ask about my day it makes me sick. When I know how easily I'll be replaced it breaks my heart. When I wake up crying and you tell me you don't have time for my grief I wonder where your heart is.

I know this has been stressful for both of us. But I don't understand why you can't understand that all the hurting and anger isn't at you. It's at life. I've tried to explain, but you don't want to hear. To have you constantly reject me feels like manipualtion.

Why am I not good enough for you? Why are all my accomplishments not enough? Why do you continue to make things more difficult?

Just say you want out. Be a man. Make the hard decision. Yes, it will be uncomfortable. Yes, it will make you the bad guy. I want this, I want us. I've given this my all.

The bottom line is that I don't trust you. The bottom line is you don't care. We're both just trying to make it out. The difference is you're playing dirty, whether you know it or not.

You can kick me while I'm down. It's what you do.