I know I've been lax about posting, and I'm sorry, but I think this is the way it will be for a while.
My dad is really sick. They say he won't last more than a year now, and that that long would be a miracle. He will have more chemo. More poison. He has some time though, I don't know what he wants to do with it.
The rest of my life is fairly a mess. I don't call friends back, and I can never get enough sleep. I have tons of homework that I'll never be able to finish and most days I end up crying for one reason or another (today it's just sheer exhaustion). I'm not sure how I'm getting through each day, but I am and it's hell. That's as positive as I'm able to be, and I'm just not going to try harder to be better. It's the trying to be something else that's killing me.
I have a fairly ridiculous midterm today. I'm not that worried about it, except for the fact that I'd love to sleep through it.
We leave for Moab on Sunday, maybe I'll feel less alone then.
My dad is really sick. They say he won't last more than a year now, and that that long would be a miracle. He will have more chemo. More poison. He has some time though, I don't know what he wants to do with it.
The rest of my life is fairly a mess. I don't call friends back, and I can never get enough sleep. I have tons of homework that I'll never be able to finish and most days I end up crying for one reason or another (today it's just sheer exhaustion). I'm not sure how I'm getting through each day, but I am and it's hell. That's as positive as I'm able to be, and I'm just not going to try harder to be better. It's the trying to be something else that's killing me.
I have a fairly ridiculous midterm today. I'm not that worried about it, except for the fact that I'd love to sleep through it.
We leave for Moab on Sunday, maybe I'll feel less alone then.
2 Comments:
Did your dad at least have a decent break in FL?
Cant you take a year break with your studying so you can concentrate on getting the other stuff sorted?
Hope you have a good trip anyway - hey if you notice any camp (tent) sites around where you visit can you let me know their names - fancy doing some mountain biking out there next year maybe.
I do feel for you,
it's very hard to
do hum-drum stuff
like studying or work
when you're heads
elsewhere.
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